Hellos everyone...

Finally... my last night in LA... I don't foresee myself sleeping in this apartment again after tonight... Felix just got back from his apartment hunt in Pitt. On the way back... he told me one of the weirdest sentence I ever heard coming from him, "don't you feel sentimental? finally leaving everything?" Perhaps, I don't know, I seriously don't know... I stopped thinking about it and a lot of things a while ago...

Game binging... binge gaming... urgh... whichever makes more sense

Yup... that's what I've been up to since Felix got back from Taiwan a month ago...  well, as much as possible mind you, since I still have to go work in lab everyday and all... Anyhoo~ I find it to be quite a... hm... enlightening experience... to just lose myself game after game, forgetting and stop caring about anything AND everything other than the game I am playing. I personally think that I am a happier person because of it. I just want to play any and every games I ever wanted to play before I lose the chance to play them... so... here's my progress so far... (btw, I am having free time to write this basically because I think I am at a point of getting sick of playing games for so long)

So... here's the game list in alphabetical order

Age of Empires III

City Life

Civilization IV

Dreamfall: The Longest Journey 2

Empire Earth II

Heroes of Might and Magic V

Need for Speed Most Wanted

Need for Speed Underground 2

Oblivion

Rise of Nations

Rise of Nations 2 – Rise of Legends

Romance of Three Kingdoms IX

Spell Force 2 – Shadow War

The Longest Journey

Tomb Raider: Legend

Warcraft III

Warcarft III XP: Frozen Throne

Granted some of them I didn't finish because they are just bad games, ie Age of Empire III, or I found some other games that's more interesting, thus preventing me from completing them, ie. NFS series, Oblivion, Heroes of Might and Magic V, Spell Force 2 (well most of them just take way too much time anyways). I think I finished playing the rest of the games on the list as much as possible... well... since most of the games now are mostly RTS, simulation etc... never ending, at least I played through the campaign/story modes etc.

I know some of you, if any, who actually read this are probably lying in a pool of vomit/blood/whatever you throw up now, knowing some stupid kid out there aren't suffering with the finals and testings and what not, but I don't want to remind myself constantly that I am stuck in a never ending lab volunteer job for three years now that does not benefit me in any tangible way other than wasting my time day after day even after graduation... even when I can finally go rest or whatever, and that I still got annoying stuffs I need to prepare for August and no one to help me... urgh... anyways... sorry, feels a bit... whinish =/

Geez... when was the last time I updated... anyways here's what I've been up to if anyone wonders... not that there's anyone that would care but I feel like blabbing...

Yet I don't feel like to... not in good mood haha... stupid mom... anyways... whatever....

O WOW...

My old elementary school classmate just contacted me and told me a glimpse of what other elementary school classmates are doing right now... I haven't been in contact with them for I think about 5 or more years. I have been kind of hiding from them all this time... but still... o wow...  they all turn out to be quite different than what I would imagined of them when I was small... I am so overwhelmed right now... by some weird sentimental feeling... or maybe it's just the songs I am listening now... but still...

...need time to process

Begining of the end...

Well, obviously this is a rant post about med schools and my current mood... lol...

It's the end of MARCH!!! ~4 more months and I will literally leave everything behind again and take the first step toward the rest of my life... Everyone who's been to med school or are going to med school now, all say "if you got something you want to do, do it now, because once you are in, there's no time for anything" Too bad the same can't be said about me since I am stuck in 2 lab jobs, both seem to be very very dependent on my contribution there, and I am not saying so to make myself feel better, because if it is not so, I'd quit them already... I got so many games I want to play/finish, so many books I want to read, so many songs I want to play, and so many things I need to organize and clean up... but it seems I'll have to live the rest of my life here in So Cal as a disgruntled free lab volunteer like I had been for the last 2 years...

O well, my dad actually told me to relax and enjoy the final days of live w/ no responsibility and just have fun... too bad I got bunches of constructs that the lab desperately need and no one else to do them and it's freakishly annoying and tedious in making them... and another lab w/ data analysis that the faster I finish them, the faster I got more to work on... AND!!! I can't tell him that! or my mom... she's so... annoyed with Felix and me spending so much time on lab and not paying attention to her, she wants us to quit and just stay home for the rest of the time starting immediately... In fact!! Just last monday, I woke up with my mom yeling at me saying "Go call that USC grad student you guys work with that you are not gonna analyze data anymore, I can't believe you spend your weekend working on them instead of spending time with me..." I blanked out after that... but anyways it wasn't pretty...

I am also scared of Wisconsin haha... well Milwaukee is famous for beer and braustwraust (I can't spell)... but I don't like both -_-... I don't know what it's going to be like there, I think I will be alone there... feels like going into another unknown territory like when I just moved to US... stupid huh? Only this time, I can't count on meeting a lot of people having similar background as me like I could when I moved to So Cal some faithful 10 yrs ago... Furthermore, I also don't know what will happen with my home here in Arcadia once Felix and I both go out of the state... because there will be no more reason for my mom to stay here, and... all our stuffs... memories... I don't know... I don't know how to cope with all these... urgh... I am begining to turn into one of those guys you see on the street that can just care less about everything around them and totally engrossed in his own world...

I also think most of the students will probably think of me as a lost high school kid when they first see me haha... Seriously... even 14 year olds look more mature than me -_-...

AAAAAhhh... I don't know... I hope August never comes... but I also don't want to waste the rest of my time here... (fan ah fan ah fan ah fan ah fan ah...)^10e9

time's awasting...